Thursday, March 27

This new house

Great, I come back from Paris and it's Spring. Or almost, anyway.
The deer are stripping the bark from the lilacs I planted last summer, there is some kind of ugly growth on many of our tree branches, and the pond appears to have eaten the path.
We're also attempting to further reduce our consumer addiction, we have a lot of jeans that need recycled (not as jeans, possibly as fishing nets) and we've started planting seeds indoors already. So I'm going to be trying a lot of very strange ideas and I'll record what works (and what doesn't) here.

Monday, February 18

Dublin

This is an excerpt from last year's journal that I've been pondering as I prepare to visit Nice and Paris. Feel free to ponder along.

We should have spent the week in Dublin.

The Guiness Warehouse understands its place in the city, and, tongue-in-cheek, makes you walk up a seven story sensory assault to stand elbow-to-elbow against the dilettantes who lounge disaffected in the only available seats.

Everywhere I can see evidence of the stinking, steady, loud, hard-working and laughing character that populates Joyce, Wilde, O'Casey. But the evidence is painted over, plastered behind new facings. It feels like the streets have become New Jersey debs covering their bad manners with makeup. Keep the bad manners, lose the makeup.

Oscar's statue is covered with colors as vibrant as even he could have wanted. He lounges, as Yeats said, "on the fairy-swept dew" of St. Stephen's Green. They loved you, they hated you. They paint you raucous colors and lay you out on a rock. What else could you have done for yourself?

The Abbey, dressed now in its modern coture but still the cauldron of Irish drama: intimate, inviting, and slyly slipping alternative ideas to this blue-collar town between pints.

Finally, before the train left, we found him. James leans on his cane and muses on the busy pedestrian section of O'Connell Street. And in front of him, separating traffic, the Spire (the Hypodermic, as the more polite Dubs call it.) What do you think of all this, James? Your country (still your country, for all you couldn't work here) has taken you back and trumpets your writing as its own. You are carved into the Guiness tower windows as though the chic crowds never exiled you. Ireland has been to war, avoided war, allowed tolerance and understanding in the back door, and embraced its place in the world with only slight reservations. But is it losing its power over artists and the innovation of their work? Is it becoming the jejune layabout you were so disgusted by? You loved the living city. You loved its wanting and its dirt. Tourists don't like dirt, James, and so the Dubs move on. Why do you think they set this gleaming phallus in front of you if not to deny the impotence of Eire in a world driven by technology and the tourist trade? But you didn't care for either. You cared for heart, for artistry, for inspiration. This city, this country always provided it. Until now. Now they chase the same power everyone else chases, and can't grasp it. They need you now more than ever, James, but once again I don't think they're listening to you.

Doesn't it break your heart, James? The way they never listen until it's too late? What do you think of this city now, James? What do you think of it all?

I asked him that. Do you know what he said?

He said, "Feck 'em."

Yah. Let's go home.

Friday, February 15

Reincarnation & String Theory

So someone in one of my forums brought up reincarnation. I know people who believe in this, but to me it seems a very complex explanation for something very simple. On the other hand, I think string theory is an elegant description of the world, and it's damnably complex.

I could argue that the concept of reincarnation is tied to string theory. This branch of physics postulates that all matter AND all energy consists of immeasurably tiny, vibrating strings. The only difference between them is the way they vibrate. That connects with me because it speaks to something I understand on every level. OK, I'm going to geek out here. The quote is from Babylon 5:
"I will tell you a great secret, Captain. Perhaps the greatest of all time. The molecules that make up your body are the same as the molecules that make up this station, and the nebula outside, that burn inside the stars themselves. We are star stuff. We are the universe made manifest, trying to figure itself out. As we have both learned, sometimes the universe requires a change of perspective."

And it's true. Quantum physics also indicates that every tiniest particle of matter or energy, in its eternal dance, affects every other particle of matter or energy. One of the strangest principals of quantum physics is demonstrated by one of the simplest tests: if you observe light as it's directed at a kind of screen, the experiment shows that light is composed of particles. Quanta. If you perform the experiment again, but don't watch it as it runs, the results show waves. So the observer really does change the observed at a basic level.

So here's how this might work from a druidic perspective:
All things are interconnected. All things affect and are affected by all other things. Since this is the case, nothing new is created, nothing old is destroyed. All that is, has always been. The perception of time is a story we tell ourselves to make sense of the differences between things: then and now are simply positions from which we view existence.

It interests me that there is an emphasis in Druidry on sounds, because there is a satisfying connection here: perhaps reincarnation, ascendancy, or the achievement of Nirvana are all stories we tell ourselves to describe a distinct change in the vibration of certain strings.

Perhaps all we are really doing, as we die, is changing our song.